In June 1999, my husband Scott and I began to try for several months to conceive our first child . . . to no success. We went to a doctor to find out if something was wrong. I had a number of tests including MRIs to see if I had an obstruction in the uterus, HSG’s to test if the fallopian tubes were O.K., and ultrasounds to view the uterus and ovaries. The doctors found that I had eight fibroid tumors in my uterus ranging in size from a walnut to a grapefruit. The uterus would not be able to hold a child with all the fibroids, and it was recommended I have the fibroids removed surgically.
Scott and I did a lot of research on fibroids and on various doctors. After many hours of praying we chose a doctor out of Chicago who could remove the tumors laporascopically. Many of the local doctors in Detroit wanted to do an open myomectomy and if anything were to go wrong with the surgery I would have a hysterectomy. This doctor in Chicago said he would do it laporascopically and the worse case scenario would be an open myomectomy.
Scott and I had a peace in our spirit about the surgery and flew to Chicago on June 29, 2000. The surgery was successful in removing the fibroids however; there was great concern about my fallopian tubes. After a die test the doctor found that the left tube was nonfunctional and the right tube was partially blocked. The doctor informed us it is best to wait a year after surgery before conceiving so that complete healing of the uterus could occur, because the uterus had been cut and stitched in three places.
After trying for six months with no success my ob/gyn referred me to an infertility specialist. The infertility specialist looked at all the tests we had done, and said because of the scarred fallopian tubes artificial insemination would not work. He told us our only option was in vitro fertilization. The doctor recommended we go through a class to learn more about it, and at the end of the class they discussed how sometimes there are more embryos made than can be used at the time. Our options were donating them to research, offering them to another couple, or keep them frozen for us to use later. This scenario gave us such an unsettled feeling in our spirit; we decided not to go forward with the in vitro. The story of Abraham and Sarah kept ringing over in our spirit. Abraham took his situation of no children into his own hands by taking Hagar, his wife’s maidservant, and giving birth to Ishmael. God’s promise to Abraham, the blessing of Isaac, came 14 years later, which was God’s timing.
God’s perfect timing is so much better than ours. I did not want to miss giving the glory to God for the birth of a child. That is why we made the decision not to move forward with the in vitro, and to wait patiently on God.
“While medicine couldn’t help us, we knew who the great physician was.” We continued to pray and go down for healing at church. The Lord was teaching me the obedience of reading His word diligently and spending time in His presence every morning. He also spoke to me about journaling and writing the various steps we were going through in my journal.
The first of many lessons He taught me was, “Leap for joy, and praise Him in your situation” -1 Thessalonians 5:16, however difficult it may be and thank Him for teaching me patience during this time. Month after month I got down on my knees every time I started my cycle and instead of being disappointed I thanked Him knowing that He was in control. I knew He was teaching me a lesson and I prayed I would be open to hearing His Word.
After a blood analysis by the infertility doctor in April 2002, the results came back at a prolactin level of 108, which was quite shocking. The prolactin level in women should be below 20 in order to conceive. The doctor felt that a possible symptom of high prolactin was a pituitary tumor. He sent me to have an MRI to analyze the brain and see if a tumor was there and if so what size it was. He mentioned that some tumors are cancerous, which would need to be watched.
I had the MRI in the beginning of May 2002. It came back as a micro adenoma, which is a very small tumor, one that could hardly be seen on the MRI. The infertility doctor then said a tumor that small could not be the cause of the high prolactin. The doctors were baffled at the high levels of prolactin I had, and still to this day there is no medical explanation.
Throughout this process I continued praying every morning, Scott and I had a “peace that was beyond understanding” -Philippians 4:7. The end of April 2002 during one of my morning prayer times the Lord revealed to me that I would conceive in June. I told only two people that I heard from the Lord — my husband and my best friend. Now at this point my prolactin was still high and the doctors did not know why. We waited patiently for June to come and I scheduled another blood test, this time with an endocrinologist. I asked her to do a complete blood test along with a pregnancy test. My appointment was June 21, and she called me with the results on June 24. The results showed all my blood levels to be absolutely perfect, including my prolactin level, which was at 16.3. The doctors had no idea how it came down, but Scott and I knew it was God, and His healing hand. When I inquired about the pregnancy test she said it was negative, I was not pregnant. I was driving in my car at the time and remember hanging up my cell phone and praying to God, and saying, “You said June; you said I would conceive in June.” God said to me clear as day “Do you believe”, I said, “Yes, I believe, I believe.” Then he said, “The end of June.”
Our God is such a detailed and specific God, and He had a perfect plan all laid out for us, so because I had been trying over a year I knew what date and time I would start my next cycle, it would be June 29. To calculate a pregnancy the doctors go back to the first day of your last period. And I just smiled that day in my car and thought what a mighty God we serve. I am going to conceive in June, what an absolute blessing.
As July came and I continued my morning prayer time, it was then that God revealed to me the whole picture. He showed me why I went through the challenges that I did to get pregnant and during those last two years of my life, how he ordered my steps. It narrows down to “The Word of the Lord is living and active. Sharper than any double edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit joints and marrow, it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.” – Hebrews 4:12.
What the last two years meant for me was spirit surgery. I had to dedicate my time to reading the bible and not just reading it but living it and acting on it, acting out in faith on what it says. The double-edged sword is the division of the soul and the spirit, we cannot let the sins of our soul drag down our spirit, and it’s our spirit that needs to shine through to reflect the body of Christ. The Holy Spirit broke me down and brought me to the lowest of lows so I could see how God can bring us back. We need to completely trust in Him and in the guidance of the Holy Spirit that Jesus gave us as a gift to guide us. If we do not listen to the Holy Spirit and spend time in the Lord’s presence, we are missing out on the blessing. And in my case the learning is what I needed in my life. I am a different person because of this experience and the most important thing for me at this point is to share this experience with as many people as possible so they too can see what God can do. “I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me.” -Philippians 4:13
The story gets better because God is trying to get people’s attention, and one of those people is my best friend. Because not only did He want me to step out in faith and tell her that I heard from Him, but He also arranged months earlier for my best friend and I to plan a girls shopping weekend for July 27 & 28 which was going to be the weekend I would find out I was pregnant. So when I packed for this fun filled shopping weekend with my friend, I packed all my clothes and a pregnancy test. We spent the day shopping together on Saturday, and if you can believe it my friend’s sister called that weekend to share with me that she was pregnant, and she had been trying for three years as well. I was thrilled at the fact that God was using my friend’s sister and me to share God’s grace with her.
So when I woke up Sunday morning July 28 with my best friend still asleep, I snuck in to the bathroom, and took the pregnancy test. I laid it on the counter in the bathroom without looking at it and got down on my knees on the tile floor and thanked the Lord for what He was about to do. I prayed for my best friend, and all the people God would have me share my testimony with that they will listen with open ears and hearts and have a desire to know God personally and to believe in Jesus the son of God.
When I got up from my knees and looked at the test, it read positive, I praised God and just smiled at the awesomeness of Him. I was pregnant and it was the most glorious experience I have ever had. I immediately woke up my best friend, we were overjoyed and held each other and cried together. I was able to share my testimony of Gods faithfulness with my friend along with many others. I continue to pray for anyone reading this no matter what your situation may be, to surrender it over to God and watch how God Almighty will change your life.
Kennedy Grace was born March 19, 2003 weighing 8 lbs and measuring 20 inches long. She is a true joy and the most incredible gift from God.
My best friend received Christ November 2003, just four months after this miracle.
Two years later God blessed us with a son, Colton on February 2, 2005 weighing 8 lbs. and measuring 21 inches long. When the doctor did the original ultrasound at 6 weeks he confirmed this child was conceived from the left ovary and left fallopian tube. (the one that was completely damaged) I give Him the glory for my beautiful children.
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